So it all begins....

So i officially started working today.
Goodbye beaches, hello office chair!!
Spending my day in the office crushing some papers, phoning some Canadians, and planning planning planning.
Tonight we had a prayer and worship time.
During the whole time all i could think about was how tomorrow a beautiful young girl is having surgery to get a cancerous brain tumor removed for the second time.
17 years old.
where is the justice in that?
I don't understand it, i don't have the answers.
What i do know is that God loves her.
The only thing to lean on is the truths about who God is
So tonight i stood there and i cried.
Tears poured down my face and i questioned God.
i questioned His character
i questioned His plan
i questioned how He could be just
i questioned how this situation proves true to Him being a just Father
As the singing continued i stood quiet
the tears stopped
the questions stopped
When it stopped being about me and what I didn't understand and what I was struggling about
It started to become about Him
He spoke so tenderly and so loving, just like a Father does. He reminded me that He is in control, that He has never lost sight of her, and that I don't see the whole picture.
Psalm 27:14 says "Wait for the Lords help, Be strong and brave and wait for the Lords help."
He is supreme
He is Lord over all.
There are a lot of things that don't make sense but God is the same everyday.
When He answers prayer and our lives seem to be full of joy......God is good
When our lives and the lives of those around us are falling apart and it seems hopeless....God is good.
So He is still good, and He will remain good. He will remain faithful.
He is teaching me and growing me.
There is still much of a story to be told, much of the puzzle pieces to come together.
Wait....wait on Him and embrace the peace He freely offers.

Jesus thank you that you are good through all circumstances.
Thank you that i deserve death yet you give me life.
Thank you Papa that through it all your strength is enough.
Thank you that i don't need to stay strong i just need to stay close...