marriage.
it seems that love is in the air and everyone that i know is getting married.
what the heck is going on?
it is crazy to think that i am at that age when it is normal, actually encouraged to get married. They talk of "true love" or of "the one" and i don't really know what that looks like. Dresses, places, the food, the flowers, the invites, the pictures, the details. the never-ending details.
whoa.
Seeing my parents get divorced just over 3 months ago i begin to question what "true love" really is, and how people can say they are in love and then fall out of it in a course of 25 years. There are no gaurantees, there are no life-time warranties promising an exchange or return if something doesn't go as planned. There is a decision and based on who that person is at that time is what makes or breaks the decision. How do you know they won't change, that they will be this person you love forever?
i don't have the answers
i don't have any answers actually
typical.
the thing is even with all this doubting and all this uncertainty i still really want to get married. And it is not like something i look at way in the future, but i wouldnt' mind getting married in a year, sometime soonish at least.
i don't get me sometimes
I guess someday i will hopefully meet that guy that i can trully say i love and possibly even see myself with forever. maybe i have even met him and i haven't gotten to that point where i can admit it. who knows.
What i do know is that i want to be pursued as my Jesus has pursued me, and without that pursuit i might never be won over.
I guess i'm just a good old fashioned romantic type.
And something else i know is that God has a plan, that i am his daughter whom he loves and hasn't forgotten about.
Just seek His face and eventually you will run into some else who is seeking His face, and then you can seek His face together.
once again mom, you were right.
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